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09:26 pm: WHO WILL ANSWER THIS LJ?????
O What a long time it has been since i have updated. I think that my last update was back in november. Way before i had a life. Now its great because i dont have to spend my down time writing in LJ because i dont really have any down time. Austin is fucking great and living on your own is great to. I miss El Paso tho. I think that the only thing i miss is my mom, dad, and lil sis, sometimes Jordan but thats about it. I have no friends in El Paso. Its fucking amazing how you think you know someone and you want to get to know them even more but things end up "happening" the way you didnt expect it. What a crazie turn life has had on me. When moving away everyone thought i wasnt gonna do it and i did and now i have no one. I still talk to banta thats because we are two hours away and we still see each other. Monica is still there i see her all the time. But you know what the friend ships that i lost i wish i hadnt lost but it wasnt because i lost them its because they lost me the one that i lost was jackie and well some times i miss that crazie girl. Yeah jaxs if you read this i did call you crazie. But wow what great times huh. As for marisa wow did things go wrong on that one. I wish they didnt. But Fuck it if some one doesnt care enough about you to call and say whats up the i guess thats that. So Austin WOW its fucking great the weather is getting better and soon BIKINIS are going to be run'n around the river. The group of friend i have made are fucking great never a dull moment with any of them never that feeling of having to lie to do something else. But then again its college not fucking high school. And for those who care the love life is going good. Not great but good. Some over nighters and what not but thats that.
Well i guess all thats left is to see who writes back to say whats up.
R

05:34 pm: Take the test and ill tell you the results
FOR BOYS & GIRLS
-Brad Pitt tank top or shirt less.
-Ice down your pants or jack off
-Brad Pitt or Colin Farrel
-Bette Midler or Cher
-Pink or Purple
-Sex on the beach or in the pool
-Road head or Bed head
-Long Island Ice tea or Ice tea
-Friends or Joey
-Whoppi Gold Berg or Ellen DeGenerous
-Long and thin or Fat and short
-Morning Sex or Night Sex
-Britney or Christina
-Justin solo or NSYNC
-Smooth or Furry
-Tennis or Golf
-Madonna Kiss Britney or Christina
-TOP OR BOTTOM
-Leather or Pleather
-Yankees or Astros
-99 or 100
-911 or 9-1-1
-Correct now or Correct later
-Orgy or 3 some

Answer and ill tell you how you scored, and how you ARE???
R

02:16 pm: JUST VOTE LAZY ASS
GO BUSH GO BUSH GO BUSH GO BUSH GO BUSH GO BUSH GO BUSH GO BUSH GO BUSH GO BUSH GO BUSH GO BUSH GO BUSH

SO THE QUESTION OF THE DAY IS WHOS IT GONNA BE!
BUSH OR KERRY

I WANNA KNOW WHO AND WHY?
lET ME KNOW GUYS.

I MADE THIS SHIRT THE OTHER DAY AND ITS FUCKING PIMP.
IT SAYS

EMINEM (front)

FOR PRESTIDENT (back)

I wore it to day and there was this group of guys that were like thats fucking bad ass i think im gonna make me one. SO that made me feel cool

Then there was these 3 goth fuckers
and simply hated the shirt and started talking shit and really just got butt hurt. One got in my face but campus police broke us up.

WOW over a t-shirt

So let me know bush or kerry and why.

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02:08 pm: wHAT A WEEK
Alright this weekend i went back to el paso.
well i went on wed. So i was there on thurs.
Thursday i went to mexico with my old friends and had a really great time.
JORDAN LOOKED FUCKING HOTTTTTTTTTTT.
During the day i went to CDL. My kid was great he looked like a pimp.
Friday hung around with family.
Sat. went to the UTEP game. GREAT TIME.
I finally hung out with my cuzin anthony hes fucking great and hes funny as hell. Hes my age and its great to have a cuzin that is your age cuz you bond more. Hes a bmx'er. He gave me a demo and hes fucking bad ASS i didnt think he was this good. So i figured since i live in AUSTIN. Im gonna find a sponsor for him. And you know i will cuz im bad ass like that.
Why is it that friends are hard to let go but better off like that.
well thats my weekend.
This weeks is gonna be HECTIC.
R

08:35 pm: Was it really good
Sex is sex and sex is good. But, how do you really judge a girl on sex because all girls and all guys have different things they do. So what is really good sex.
To me good sex is when you go at it all night to where your sweaty and then you just lay with each other.
And then go at it again.
~WHAT A NIGHT DID I HAVE~
WOW!!!!!
So the other night i met up with some guys and we drank a lil bit then we went to a DEAF football game and that was different.
Then after the game we went to HOOTERs and drank.
I told the girl at hooters that i forgot my ID and the guys i was with got all into it and like went with it and were like o yeah dude i saw it on billys couch and o yeah thats were it is. And so the girl believed them and i got to drink at hooters it was fucking great. After that i went to this guy wills house hung out and drank with some guys from class it was fucking great.
I think ive finally found my group.
College is great and living independently is fucking amazing.
I wish Jordan would come and visit me.
R
So a ? for all what is good sex.

11:00 pm: Some Times
So sometime i dont know why i do the things that i do? Like i meet a girl and then i start to like her and then i just stop and i dont know why i do. I just get this thing in my head to where i dont like this person anymore and its crazie cuz ive always been like that. Its a crazie thing. And then it sucks because when i dont like them anymore and i know they dont like me anymore i start to like them again and hummm.
Well i bought a new cd today which was taking back sunday and i bought it cuz of the cover because i saw it on mtv and i was like im gonna buy that cd so i did. Thats whats weird i just get a wild hair up my ass and i just do it.
So today i got home from school and it just felt like a drinking day and so i started drinking like at 3 and i really havent stopped. Its just nice to know that i dont have to watch what i do anymore. But what really suxs is that i dont have my party friends here.
Well i guess thats really all that i have to say cuz it took me about an hour just to write this damn livejournal.
I think some of you should come to see me.
R

04:08 pm: ACL
tHIS CONCERT FUCKING ROCKS AND ITS ONLY LIKE 5 BAD ASS FUCKING BANDS. I CANT FIND TATA THO I DONT KNOW WHERE SHE IS I CALLED HER BUT NO DICE.
wELL GOTTA GO SEE SOMEMORE
R

10:47 am: Would You

   If you knew that later in your life you would hurt someone whould you continue to be there friend.  Whould you stop yourself from being there friend.  If you knew where the turning point was would you turn the other way.  How do you really know how your gonna be later in life to someone.

      ~~2day i put an old cd in my cd player one that i hadnt listened to like in a year.  I Was listening to SugarCult.  Man and when i started to hear song i was like blown away by the memories it was giving me.  I can remember driving in marisas car before she hit a deer... and listening to that cd and screaming the words with jackie and marisa.  Damn we had some good times.  HUH.  So thats what i mean if you know that by knowing a person you would later hurt them would you continue to be there friend.  What if you knew it was for the better.  Ive hurt alot of people in my high school life and it sux because knowing that i didnt mean to or want to i just did.  Im one of those people that once they get something in there head they just go with it.  Its a bad quality and i know because jordan made me realize.  And i know i can say im sorry and lets try again but how asuring am i when ive done it multipul times. 

    I know i cant change the past and thats why im gonna learn from it.  And it sucks because i wish i would have learned along time ago so i would still have those friends.

You know who you are ive hurt alot of you.  Im sorry that i did but in a way it was good because it helped me realize who i am.  But i would also like to say thank you because the memories that you gave me will always be with me.  And to those who came back to see if i could change thanks for giving me antoher chance.

R

~jackie

~jordan

~Alysha

~Erika

~Gabe

~Ryan.......Ill stop there.............

10:11 am: Ladies and Gentelmen
Hey guys well as of monday my old EPT number will be TERMANATED!!!
So i got a new number so you can call me. Ready....Got a pen..... ok...
512-665-5070
So yeah guys i should have already called you and told it to you but if i havent there it is. And if anybody ask's give it to them.
R

01:37 pm: Now i know where i should be
So this past weekend i went home and you know what if fucking sucked i hate el paso. I showed up on friday when to CDL and my kid wasnt even there thats what really sucked. Then i went to see my mom and my dad and you know what if it wasnt for them being there then i would have never gone back. El Paso sucks. Marisa i love you but man i hate el paso. Right after i saw my mom and dad i was ready to leave and you know what if it wasnt for me not taking my car i probably would have gone home to.
Everything is just shitty and the people ther suck and so i dont think im going back unless its really important. Or to see my mom but thats about it. Sorry maris you have to come see me.
I didnt even party or anything. I went to lunch with jennifer, movies with jordan and we ended up leaving early.
So Now i know where i should be and i should be here in AUSTIN. I was so happy to be home.
Its crazie how you miss something then go to it and not miss it after that.
So....
Next time im just gonna drive...
OPPOSITE EPT.
R

03:25 pm: WHERE DO I GO???
If i could go one place where would i go????
If i could go some where 2morrow where would i go.
Do you know where i would go?
Well im going 2morrow.
Does anyone know where?

02:36 pm: The Same Ol Day

Ok Ok so lately i think i have been in like this weird mode where i dont like where i am.  And it sucks because i dont want to be in that same mode i think i left El Paso so i could get out of that.  Well it sucks cuz i am now realizing that i am running out of money and its getting me scared and i know you say why dont you get a job but DUH im trying its a small college town and ok well its not small but all the jobs i want are already taken and i dont want some boring old job all of my jobs have been fun.  Like SUBWAY.... haha jackie made that one fun.....wonder how shes doing???  Village Inn that was just fun becasue of the ppl...KB Toyz well its all toys and all i did was play with race cars so yeah and so im looking for that really good job and i cant find it and it sucks cuz i know my parents will pay for my rent AGAIN but i dont want them to. 

I also met these really got chick when i was working making snow cones and so i went and hung out with them i really like this one her name was alexandra and wow was she beautiful.  But she lives like 1 hr away and i cant get my grove on by driving 1 whole hour.  I will have lost my mojo by then.

Well guys i think thats it i miss you and and wish i was back home............but this year lease is gonna hold me up for a while.

R

12:59 pm: Answer me something
To all my ladies out there i need you to fill this out for me...
Alright Alright the guys can fill it out also....
MARISA YOUR ASS BETTER ANSWER THIS!!!

1. Am I cute?:
2. Am I hot?:
3. Am I sweet?:
4. Am I crazy?:
5. Am I loveable?:
6. Am I funny?:
7. Am I annoying?:
8. Am I psycho?:
9. Am I daring?:
10. Am I a goody:
11. Am I sexy?:

WOULD YOU..
12. Hug me?:
13. Miss me if I was gone?:
14. Listen to my problems?:
15. Hug me if I cried?:
16. Be a good friend?:
17. Ever go out with me?:
18. If you already have would you do it again?:
19. Kiss me?:
20. Let me sleep on your shoulder?:
21. Marry me if you could?:

HOW WELL DO YOU KNOW ME?
22. When's my birthday?:
23. How tall am I?:
24. What school do I go to?:
25. Do I have any siblings --> names?? :
26. Who is my most current ex?:
27. Who is my best friend?:
28. Who am I crushing on/dating?:
29. Favorite animal?:
30. Favorite Color?:
31. Favorite TV show?:
32. Favorite song/songs?:
33. Favorite music group?:

IF YOU COULD..
34. Give me a new name, what would it be and why?:
35. Hook me up with someone (real), who would it be and why?:
36. Do one thing with me what would it be and why?:
37. Drop me one piece of advice, what would it be?:

JUST A FEW QUESTIONS
38. What do you love about me?:
39. What do you hate about me?(seriously):
40. What is my best quality?:
41. If you could change one thing about me what would it be?:
42. What is your honest opinion of me?: .

fill this out to

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I lovable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

R

10:56 am:

Ok So I went on a date last night with this girl and you know what she was really sweet shes cute and blah blah blah...

Well Sitting and talking with here im like sizing her up...  Yeah i start like well she's not like jordan this way and that way and so im starting not to like her just because she doesnt compare to jordan.  I know its over between me and jordan and im fine with that well i think i am or yeah i am.

I DONT KNOW!!!

I think i do need jordan in my life.  She was a big part and now im missing that part i miss her very much.

FUCKING JORDAN EVEN NOT BEING HERE YOUR CAUSING ME PAIN!

R

10:55 pm: YOU PISS ME OFF
~SO THIS LJ GOES OUT TO MARISA~
So im always writing my live journal and the only reason i got to doing this was because marisa got me started on it. Marisa got EVERYONE started on live journal. And the one person i write my livejournals for never seems to comment. I write and i write and i write just because its easier and alot fast to tell marisa something but for some reason i never get the feed back. Then i talk to her on the phone and its a real quick hello good bye thing because i feel like i wrote everything so now there is nothing to write about...
Marisa you need to start commenting and updating your live journal.
If you dont then i will not write anymore.
R

09:32 pm: Hell Yeah Babie

So today was the day...I met a girl.  She's really cute and her name is melanie.  WOW.  Yeah shes a junior in college which means that shes like 20-21 thats awsome.  We were walking out of class and we start talking and she looks at me and says your my new 18yr old bf and i was like umm i  can deal with that.  So we started talking and laughing and i was like well give you your phone number so we can hang out and i can take you out and she was like yeah so she gave it to me...

Then she walked away and she was like hey if you get the movie for this class give me a call so that you can come over and watch it so i was like yeah i will.

So you know what im doing 2morrow...Im gonna go buy that movie.  O yes.  I hope i can finally start a relation ship and get my love life goin....

DO YOU WANT TO BE MY GIRLFRIEND...?

R

05:06 pm: Internet
So finally i have the internet. I was really excited because i thought i was going to get like DSL or something fast but i went back to ol dial up. Its cool i guess cuz its free but it sucks. I was hoping to get something fast so that i could download music and po~cough~rn. Haha but guess not huh. Well i guess thats all for me.
I must seem like i have alot of time cuz ive updated everyday this week.
WELL I DO....
Im workin on doing something else. I might get a job at dominos. No driving for me thou its all inside work. Anybody want a free pizza. Hopefully ill get that job cuz i really need one.
Call me up guys im lonely.
R

02:33 pm: ACL FEST LINE UP.............
130 Bands, 8 Stages, 3 days
Can it really get any better then this...
Should be fun...any takers

American Analog Set
Terry Allen
Trey Anastasio
Anthropos Arts Student Band
Antibalas Afrobeat Orchestra
Asleep at the Wheel
Marcia Ball
Bobby Bare, Jr.
The Bells of Joy
Big Head Todd & The Monsters
The Biscuit Brothers
The Blind Boys of Alabama
Broken Social Scene
Doyle Bramhall
Marc Broussard
Clarence “Gatemouth” Brown
Solomon Burke
Henry Butler
The John Butler Trio
*CAKE
Calexico
Roseanne Cash
Cat Power
Troy Campbell
Neko Case
Centro-matic
Cooper’s Uncle
Elvis Costello & the Imposters
*SHERLY CROW
Kacy Crowley
*DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL
Howie Day
Deadman
The Dirty Dozen Brass Band
Drive-By Truckers
The Durdens
Electric Church
Joe Ely
Endochine
Franz Ferdinand
Guy Forsyth
Donavon Frankenreiter
David Garza
The Gospelaires
The Gourds
The Greencards
G. Love & Special Sauce
Gomez
Pat Green
Patty Griffin
Butch Hancock
Ben Harper & the Innocent Criminals
Earl Harvin Trio
Terri Hendrix
The Holmes Brothers
The Honorary Title
Jack Ingram
Mason Jennings
*JACK JOHNSON
The Killers
Dayna Kurtz
Ben Kweller
Los Lonely Boys
Ray Lamontagne
Tucker Livingston
Louque
Shelby Lynne
Joe McDermott
Medeski Martin & Wood
Lucas Miller
The Mighty Sincere Voices of Navasota
Monte Montgomery
Abra Moore
*MODEST MOUSE (REALLY EXCITED TO SEE)
Mofro
Trish Murphy
My Morning Jacket
The Neville Brothers
New Monsoon
North Mississippi Allstars Old 97’s
Ollabelle
Palm Elementary Choir
Papa Mali
Particle
Patrice Pike
The Pierces
The Pixies
Davis Raines
Rebirth Brass Band
Reckless Kelly
Bruce Robison
The Roots
Rose Hill Drive
Josh Rouse
Bob Schneider
The Shields of Faith
The Slip
The Soundtrack of Our Lives
Slightly Stoopid
Sloan
Mindy Smith
Spoon
Samantha Stollenwerck
Star Kid’s Yoga
The Legendary Soul Stirrers
Tea Leaf Green
Toots & The Maytals
Trout Fishing in America
J.T. Van Zandt
Rachael Yamagata
Warrior
The Wailers
Walter “Wolfman” Washington
& the Roadmasters
Dale Watson
Jason White
Holly Williams
Kelly Willis
Wilco
Willy Mason

10:24 am: Hows it going
So how is everybody? Ok so yesterday i went to my sign language class and come to find out that my teacher is deaf. Yup DEAF. That makes the class more interesting cuz she'll never yell at you, but it makes it more harder for those who dont know any signlanguage. But like i told marisa any body (any girls) that need help ill be more then happy to you guys out. heh.
Yesterday i went to lay down for bed and i found out that there were ants all over my bed and i dont know how they got there. So i was up till 12 vaccumming and cleaning my sheets. It sucked then while i was trying to sleep it flet like i had the ants all over. that sucked.
So the ACL FEST is coming i think the 26,27,28 of september and guess whos coming...
MODEST MOUSE. Im pretty excited about that. Its a three day event its kinda like wood stock just not as kayotic. Marisa, My Friend you should come up here for it. Theres gonna be LOTS of bands that i know you will like. So plan for it. The tickets are 80 bucks. I dont know thats pretty good for 3days worth. Go To ACLFEST.com you check it out.
Well i have class like in 15min so i guess ill let you all go.
PEACE

02:47 pm: SO IM HERE ALL ALONE...
SO finally i have reached AUSTIN. Great huh. Austin is great its nice. Ok so i lied. Im not really in austin im in San Marcos. Its fucking great. The girls here i BEAUTIFUL. Just what i like. Nice pretty and cute like JORDAN. Yes you too MARISA. So i dont have internet yet so im at a public library. Schools great its not as bad as i thought it would be but hey schools school. I have like 12 more years so i better get crakin. Im gonna take off a year and go to Germany in 2006 anybody want to join...? So yeah renee and monica are coming down im fucking excited. Im sure marisas gonna come but i dont know when but she needs to come NOW. I miss her. I miss alot of people. But hey time for something new. None of that same old bullshit. Well guys gotta go i got a 6 o'clock class and i need to go get my stuff together.
Peace